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Satisfied in You

Updated: Dec 10, 2020

Psalm 42 has a special place in my heart. David wrote this during a time of deep despair and hurting. He’s so clearly in a season of depression and takes that to the Lord. I’ve always been convinced that I need to pick myself up, fix my depression alone, and THEN turn to Jesus. Spoiler alert: this is wrong. Psalm 42 isn’t the only place that my past thought process is proved wrong, but it was the first time that I really grasped that a person in the Bible actually voicing their hurt and not holding back. It reminded me of my freedom to go to God in my depression instead of waiting until I felt better or thought I had figured out the reason for my depression to make sense of it to God. He already knows that my depression is because of our broken world. He loves me anyway. I highly encourage you to read Psalm 42, slowly and more than once. If you connect more with music, there’s also a couple really amazing song versions of Psalm 42 that bring me to tears every time. I’ll add the Psalm and songs below, but first here’s my cry to God in my depression and weakness.


It seems as though I’m in the darkest of days.

My head is heavy and the only sight I see is the dirt below.

I am unable to lift my head on my own.

I’ve tried for so long, but now

I am content to only see the ground I stand on.

Too tired to keep trying to look up at you, God.

I know you are beautiful.

I know you are merciful.

I know you deserve the lifting of my head.

I am just tired and beaten down.

The day my head lifts to see you will be a day of praise and thanksgiving.

Until then, I know you meet me, my head hangs low.

Instead of expecting me to raise my eyes to you,

You’ve lowered yourself to where I can see.

You are beautiful.

You are merciful.

You will raise my head again.

I will praise you from now till then and forevermore.

You are my God.

Psalm 42

1 As a deer pants for flowing streams,

so pants my soul for you, O God.

2 My soul thirsts for God,

for the living God.

When shall I come and appear before God?

3 My tears have been my food

day and night,

while they say to me all the day long,

"Where is your God?"

4 These things I remember

as I pour out my soul:

how I would go with the throng

and lead them in the procession to the house of God

with glad shouts and songs of praise,

a multitude keeping festival.

5 Why are you cast down, O my soul,

and why are you in turmoil within me?

Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,

my salvation 6 and my God.

My soul is cast down within me;

therefore I remember you

from the lang of Jordan and of Hermon,

from Mount Mizar.

7 Deep calls to deep

at the roar of waterfalls;

all your breakers and your waves

have gone over me.

8 By day the Lord commands his steadfast love,

and at night his song is with me

a prayer to the God of my life.

9 I say to God, my rock:

"Why have you forgotten me?

Why do I go mourning

because of the oppression for the enemy?"

10 As with deadly wound in my bones,

my adversaries taunt me,

while they say to me all the day long,

"Where is your God?"

11 Why are you cast down, O my soul,

and why are you in turmoil within me?

Hope in God; for I shall again praise him,

my salvation and my God.

By Gabi Houk

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